Sunday, December 12, 2010

'Tis the Season

Somewhere near Woodland Park and Divide, CO
I blog in my head all the time. Obviously, what's in my head rarely makes it here. When I began blogging, it was a fun challenge. I had other friends doing it, who encouraged me to join in the fun. You're jumping off the cliff into a lake? Sure, I'll do it (am suddenly hearing my mother's voice in my head). Seriously, it's not that I'm a follow-the-crowd sort of person. Quite the contrary, I'm generally a day late and a dollar short when it comes to jumping on the bandwagon of what's 'in'. I did want a place to chronicle my knitting, if for no one but myself, and to keep up with my knitting accomplishments (clearly little, it would seem). It's also a good means of sharing what's going on in the family with family, except no one in my family actually reads my blog. C'est la vie.
My early blog posts embarrass me. I've shared that before, but feel it bears repeating. As I began to write better (not saying 'good', but better, so don't think I'm bragging, please), it had an upside and a downside. The upside is obviously better blog posts. Comments and compliments I've received are another upside....and a downside. As I received comments or e-mails complimenting me, I suddenly felt pressure to perform. I consider myself a discouraged perfectionist. I am a perfectionist, but I'm also lazy. If I don't feel up to putting in the time and effort to do something 'just so', I don't bother to do anything at all (it shows, in the state of my house). I began feeling like I had to really "write". I couldn't risk those who complimented me regretting they'd done so. Arg, the pressures I put on myself!
I can hear you now (the maybe two readers left who've not unsubscribed to my blog feed), GET OVER YOURSELF! You're right, I should, and I am, by golly! I'm going to write when I feel like it, and say what I feel like saying, and if no one reads but me, so be it. I was reading a friend's blog, Grey-Haired Geek, recently, and I knew Kel was describing exactly as I felt, only she said it so much better than me.
"I’m resurrecting my blog, with a difference.
As a beginner, I used a “Masterpiece of the Month” approach to blogging. I spent a lot of time getting each entry “just right”, so I didn’t blog very often. Unfortunately, I’m one of those “If I can’t do it perfectly, I won’t do it at all” kind of people
Kel, I hope you don't mind me quoting you. If you don't, then, thank you! If you do, then oops!
Roasted vine-ripened tomatoes topped with thick slices of fresh water-packed mozzarella, drizzled with balsamic vinegar glaze, and sprinkled with rock salt; Sweet potato soup; and a really good wine. Fresh baked ciabatta bread not in picture
Mr. Studley and I visited our daughter in Colorado Springs, for Thanksgiving. For you who remember she was living in England, she's back in the states as of this past fall. I love that she's had the experience of living in European countries, but as a mom, I can't tell you how good it makes me feel to know she's back on American soil (at least for now). Not that I have anything against foreign soil, but I like knowing she's within a day or so drive, or a short plane trip away, in the event that she should need her family. The food shown above was only one of the many fantastic meals prepared for us during our time spent there. We were treated like royalty on our visit.

One of the ladies restrooms in the Broadmoor Hotel, Colorado Springs, CO. No paper towels or hand blow-dryers here. Baskets laden with fresh, white cloths were provided for hand drying/face washing. A large basket sat below the sink for tossing cloths when finished using. Classy, eh?
Mr. Studley and I toured the Broadmoor Hotel one afternoon while in Colorado Springs. Fabulous doesn't describe that place. It would take a long string of adjectives, and then wouldn't do it justice. Seeing is believing. It's massive, it's opulent, it's old world, it's elegant. It's so many things. The rooms range from $275-$2,000 per night, a little rich for our blood. I hear they do have a special rate/package around Valentine's Day. Maybe some day. We thoroughly enjoyed walking about the place, snapping pictures, ooing and ahhing, with mouths gaping. When I go into a place such as that, I tend to feel like a country bumpkin. I get intimidated, feeling surrounded by people who are clearly in a different social class than me. What surprised me was the genuine niceness of the hotel staff. From those who park your car (free valet parking for those there just to look around), to those who hold open the door, to the hotel guest clerk, to anyone with an employee tag who makes eye-contact with you, they bent over backwards to be exceedingly nice. If you're ever visiting the Colorado Springs area, I strongly urge you to take a gander around the Broadmoor Hotel!

This was Leyna, our last night at Nikki's house. I suspect she knew we were leaving, and was already missing all that extra loving and play she gets from Nikki, who adores her almost as much as I do.
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Celebrate God all day, every day. I mean, revel in him! Make it as clear as you can to all you meet that you're on their side, working with them and not against them. Help them see that the Master is about to arrive. He could show up any minute!
~Philippians 4:4-5 The Message


Karen said...

Renna! I'm so happy you're back:) Good grief, I could have totally written this post -- well, not really, because I would have struggled to say it as well as you did, which means I wouldn't have posted about it at all. That perfection thing. I wonder how many times I've written a post and never printed it because I thought it wasn't good enough. Which is embarrassing to admit, lest I think (or anyone thinks) that what I've posted is the best I can do? Argh! What we do to ourselves.

I'm glad you enjoyed your trip to the Springs. I've been to the Broadmoor just once and was impressed at how they could make a country bumpkin like me feel so welcome. It's a beautiful place indeed.

So happy for you to have your daughter near again!

Renna said...

Hey, Karen! I thought of you while we were there; not that we were that close to you, but knowing I was in the same state.

I've not been taking time to comment on blogs much lately, but I never miss reading yours. I love 'peeking' into your home and life. It sounds like such a welcoming place to be.

I really am going to try and relax more with my blog writing, throwing in more bullet style posts from time to time. Thanks for being such an encourager! :-)

Joansie said...

Renna, it is so great to see you pressure. The minute I saw your name in my reader, you are the first post I read.

Linda ★ Parker's Paradise said...

I have kept you on my list and when I saw a new post, I was so excited! I am happy to hear all is well. My daughter lived in COS for 3 years.( military husband) I visited them numerous times and really love that place. The Broadmoor is fantastic. I stayed at a really nice place--my daughter's house--lol
You don't have to worry about what you post. Heavens sake! Don't you read blog with so many grammerical errors, you wonder why you are? Then you remember--you really like these people! There is so much out there beyond our own 4 walls. I enjoy reading your journey here. Hopefully you say the same about me.....

Renna said...

Joansie, thank you. I always immediately go to your blog when I see a new post in my reader. I know I've not been commenting lately, but be assured I never miss reading you!

Renna said...

Linda, my daughter isn't military, but she does work on base in COS for the DOD (just as she did when living in Europe). Yes, I definitely say the same about you. I love reading your blog. You make it such an inviting and homey place to be. :-)

Wool Winder said...

What a blessing to have your daughter closer to home!

Sarah said...

Welcome back to blogging! I also write blog posts in my head all the time, and very few ever make it to my blog. :)

Renna said...

Yes, Tracy, and I am thanking God for this blessing! :-)

Sarah, it's good to know I'm in good company. ;-)

Amy said...

So glad you're back! I've missed you!

Great pictures too.

Marguerite said...

Good to see a post from you. You've been missed.

I've been blogging 7 years and am still amazed that the posts I consider the most boring and least "perfect" are the ones that get the most comments.

Hope to hear from you more often now and please don't be perfect. It makes the rest of us feel inadequate.:-)

Renna said...

Hi, Amy! Thank you for the welcome back!

Marguerite, I'm LOL at your inadequate comment! ;-Þ

elizabeth said...

WooHoo - Renna's here! I am the exact same way as you in real life. I think that's why I struggle at home keeping things organized or doing certain projects. If I can't do it perfect I'm just not going to do it at all! As I've gotten older I'm finally letting go of some of my "rules for self" and am feeling so much better about it. I will say though I'm not able to do that knitting - if I make a mistake I"m one that has to fix it. Helps that I enjoy the knitting process perhaps more even than the end result.

Anyway, you can see I'm happy to "talk" to you again! :)

Paula said...

You posted!
*Squeeeeal* ((Happy Dance))

Okay, I'm fine, just got a little excited there for a moment...
Darling, you can say anything you like and I will be happy to read it, warts and grammitical errors and all. LOL
All of my blog posts embarass me, and before I hit the 'Publish' button I always think "no one cares about my podunky existence..." but I hit that crazy button anyway just to see if anyone is still out there.

Glad you got to spend some time with Nikki- poor little Lenya looks depressed.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you got to enjoy my little corner of the world. :)

Would you believe I've been here 12 years and have never been to the Broadmoor?

My favorite hiking spot (that I often blog about) is in the hills behind/above the Broadmoor. That's as close as I've ever come to the place.

Kat said...

woo hoo Rennas in the HOUSE....seein you back just makes me wanna dance, in fact I think i will bust a move....LOL Love you girlfriend.

Debra said...

Hi Renna!
I have always always loved reading your blog. You are a good writer! Just wanted to say Merry Christmas....
ALL of my posts embarrass me, but I can't muster up the courage to just go ahead and delete the whole blog...I like going there to see my birds.
SO glad to hear about your daughter!
Love, Debra

A Servant of the King said...

Welcome back, Renna!! It's good to see you here again. I look forward to reading your posts. :-)

Suzan said...

Renna, my dear! Next time you're visiting Colorado Springs we could get together for some coffee, tea, whatever. I'm glad you're back, too. "God teaches us in opposites and leads us from one emotion to the other so that we may have two wings, not just one, to fly."-Rumi.

Summer said...


Bobbi said...

Renna! I didn't know you were back! So happy to hear from you! I'm sorry that you are having trouble loading my blog. I've changed a few things around, so if you get back on will you please let me know if it goes any better.

Your meal looks wonderful!! I love checking out expensive places like that... and dreaming...

Glad you got to spend time with your daughter...

Karen June Miller said...

I think many of us could have written the content of the first part of this post with full understanding. I think that's what I love about blogging: the growth! When we commit our hearts and souls to cyber paper, we are forced to look at ourselves.

I, too, understand how perfection creeps in. By nature, a portion of my personality would steer far from perfection. However, I learned perfection while growing up as a form of control when things around me were unstable. God has since done a work in that area, but there is still that "just right" part of me that wants my blogging to reach a certain goal and if it misses, I won't post. I see myself relaxing more and more, aiming more for excellent and just being real.

Also, thanks for sharing in the testimony that God has been constructing in my family's life! Wow! What a ride! I so appreciate your prayers and support of my limited blogging as we are getting settled and I still don't have my own internet! We feel the dedications of those who have stood with us!

Best Blessings, Karen

Karen June Miller said...


Gigi said...

Hi Renna! Such pretty CO photos -- love that place! And I remember going to the Broadmoor when I was little -- didn't stay there but I think we went for lunch or something. Beautiful place! Glad your DD is home!